| Now at the time I was living in NYC and considered | | | | of MS has offered me numerous gifts, teachings and |
| myself a healthy person. I even began yoga alongside | | | | blessings in every area of my life. Back in the |
| my diagnosis, was an avid gym-bunny and ate well | | | | doctor's office, where my life shifted when I roared |
| but there was more for me to do to really clean | | | | NO, I learned a powerful teaching that I always have |
| house. Now "those fingers" were pointing back at me | | | | a choice. My choice to be involved with my process |
| demanding I get to work -- the "real" work. I quickly | | | | of healing was going to take more than doctors, |
| shifted by letting go of various pollutants -- smoking | | | | medicine and relying on the world outside of me. |
| (anything), drinking alcohol, eating junk foods, red | | | | What brought me even closer to myself were |
| meat and refined sugars. I began to listen to my | | | | teachers that showed up in many forms -- self-help |
| body, asking questions to discover what healing was | | | | books, healers, yoga teachers, meditation and life |
| in health food stores and healing centers. Overall, I do | | | | itself being the greatest of them all. |
| pretty well with change but mostly when it's by my | | | | I found my home in this "new" world that co-existed |
| choosing. Now, I was being influenced to change the | | | | with modern medicine. And it never made much |
| habits of what was no longer helping me and was | | | | sense to me then why they functioned more like |
| afraid of what would be uncovered. When change | | | | parallel universes. It was powerful for me to learn |
| comes from another source we resist the unknown | | | | that our thoughts are food and that they have a |
| and hold on to what might even be bad for us just | | | | direct effect on the state of our health. For me |
| for the mere comfort of it. This was a huge part of | | | | Health means more than the food we eat, it contains |
| my learning to accept this diagnosis, change my way | | | | everything including our thoughts, environment, |
| of fighting for life and open to theunknown. | | | | lifestyle, and relationships. The list keeps growing and |
| By looking inside with an honest eye I saw how I | | | | ultimately brings us back to the question, What are |
| built an outer persona to cover up a past that was | | | | you working on? And the answer is still -- ME! |
| ailing me. Ironically, I was wearing $5000 designer | | | | Action Steps: |
| outfits to hide what was essentially crumbling inside. | | | | Take time to get quiet, even better find time in |
| Just think of building a mansion on a swap -- not a | | | | nature. Then meditate on the questions to see what |
| good idea. After changing my eating habits then I | | | | comes up for you and trust it. |
| took my internal inventory. Here I brushed up against | | | | 1. What are your fingers pointing back for you to |
| gnarly feelings of being unworthy, depressed, a | | | | look more deeply at? Are you able to detect your |
| failure and felt totally alone. I could say the "dis-ease" | | | | call to action? |
| caught up to me but really it stood in front of me | | | | 2. What do you feel you could do better to heal |
| guiding me to change my life direction; a perfect | | | | more in your life now? Are you ready to make the |
| crossroads met with great resistance that led to | | | | change before you feel pushed to make it? What |
| powerful openings. I was blessed to be a seeker and | | | | can you let go of? |
| find others who could help me to take steps leading | | | | 3. Are you ignoring a part of yourself that is crying to |
| me to where I am today. It took every bit of my | | | | help by piling more stuff on it??? Are you ready to |
| being to stay strong and learn what I had to let go | | | | commit to look inside accepting what you see and |
| of without loosing myself to this "diagnosis". I was | | | | then promise to take action every day to assist in |
| working on this new project called Me. There was | | | | your healing process? |
| another monumental gift to gain, which was an | | | | Hillary Rubin has been a motivated leader in the health |
| intimate relationship with my greatest enemy -- | | | | and wellness industry for years, lecturing on a range |
| myself. For many of us we loose touch with the best | | | | of topics dealing with empowering modalities for |
| friend we have inside and focus on feeding the | | | | optimal health and teaching yoga. She has been |
| enemy that lives within and without realizing it. | | | | featured on Fit TV, Lime.com, YogaJournal. |
| Each day I am still amazed to see that my diagnosis | | | | |