Practice Life With a Focus on Integrity, Not Perfection

I was in yoga class the other day when I discoveredmind. One of my favorite things about yoga (and I
that after a two month hiatus from classes, myhave many favorites about yoga) is how the lessons
biggest challenge had nothing to do with flexibility,learned can be practically applied to life in general, for
strength or technique (though all three hadexample: adopting a beginners mind allows me to be
regressed)-my biggest challenge was my ego. Myopen and receptive to experience growth in all areas
teacher asked us to either practice handstand againstof my life.
the wall (a pose I had done a gazillion times before)The ego is all about getting us to buy into the
or practice a modified version of handstand which,phantom promise that we will be rewarded with
given my current physical conditioning, I knew was inpeace and joy once we acquire and achieve more.
my best interest at that moment. A modifiedThe truth is unless we are already expressing peace
handstand meant working into the poseand joy--which come from within us, not from
progressively, building strength and improvingwithout-no achievement or acquisition, no matter
technique incrementally until I was eventually stronghow great, will ever truly satisfy our soul. Take a
enough for a full handstand. My ego, however, hadmoment to see where this might be true in your
its knickers in a twist, it harassed me with thoughtsown life. Remember the car you really wanted and
like "how do you expect to master a skill at thisgot? Still amped up over the new car smell and the
rate?" "why waste your time with preparation, justway it handles? Are you more calm and peaceful
get into the final pose - you know you want to!"when another driver cuts you off while you're behind
"seriously, folks are going to think you're a beginner . .the wheel of your dream car? or are you already
."thinking about how much better you could give the
If you are remotely familiar with yoga you will noticeguy the finger in a newer, cooler car?
immediately how un-yogi-like these thoughts are. InAt the end of my yoga class, lying still in the final
fact, it's really an antithetical yoga practice, more likepose feeling relaxed and refreshed, I was grateful
yego. Of course, the opposite of every ego thoughtthat I ignored the crazy, anxious voice of my ego
I had is true: by practicing slowly at a pace that wasand, instead, heeded the calm wisdom of my body.
in alignment with my body's strength and ability inThis is a practice that I am still learning to master
that moment, I am truly practicing yoga and gaining(this is why yoga is considered a "practice") and as a
mastery. As for people giving a flip as to what I'mvery insightful yoga teacher once told me, yoga is a
doing in class, that's just hysterically funny. I, myself,practice of integrity, not perfection. And wouldn't you
am so caught up in my own practice and thoughtsknow? That is another great lesson from yoga that
(see previous paragraph) there's just no time ortransfers well outside the yoga studio: practice life
energy left over for opinions about others. Also, inwith a focus on integrity, not perfection. Give it a try,
yoga, mastery is not the point, it's about the journeyit just may increase the quality and enjoyment of
one takes seeking mastery; so, really, I am mostyour pursuits exponentially--it has mine. Namaste.
proficient when I adopt an open, receptive beginners